Lonely and dead inside

Sometimes I can't believe I feel so alone. I try to talk to people but they don't listen. I tried talking to my mom but she was so busy on phone. 😂 I feel like a joker in this world people will laugh at me but won't understand what's inside me. I was trying to see for some educational courses but they are expensive. But still I try to keep working to save each and every penny and it's a nightmare how things are becoming expensive and boss telling you that there is no raise.