Missing my family so much..hope hon softens her heart to forgive me..really wanna show em i can change.

Had thrown personal words about emotional support, money problems, got jealous..just blew up on her. Its like i reached my breaking point with all the stress and just exploded. Not justifiable. Always had anger management issues. Thats why i scheduled myself for therapy to prove to them i lm willing to change and be a better mom and wife. Shes just so angry with me she wont give me time to talk to them. Or even a last chance. This is the only place i can vent to. In real life i gotta look okay. And just holding it together..today i saw my nephew and missed our son even more 😭 💔 everyday i get anxious and just stare into blank space thinking how my family is doing and i cant get an update cause my wife is still mad. Cant release my frustrations anywhere but here