I Feel Lonely and Crave Affection

It's in moments like this where the will to go on is so faint that you feel you can barely see it. Moments where you have more texts from companies who have your phone number and want to market you something than the people you care about most. Moments when you feel so alone that you physically can't stop tears from flowing down your face. Moments when you wonder why people seem to ignore you despite the effort you put in to keep them close. Moments when you genuinely wonder what point there is in going on.
I know I'm not the only one who feels abandoned by everyone they hold dearest in the world so I wanted to reach out and let all the lonely people in the world know that there are people out there just like you who are wondering exactly what you are. There are people out there hanging on to air molecules below the thread we are supposed to be hanging on to. There are people who crave to be loved and adored and feel so painfully empty that they are on the border of stopping trying anymore. I want you people to know that you're not alone and I would be happy to extend a hand to all of you and offer a shoulder to cry on. There is nothing worse than being alone in this world when your heart desperately doesn't want to be.

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passingby8 · 31-35, F

I'm sorry you've felt that way.

Kodel · 26-30, M

@passingby8 It's been a rough few weeks for me. It's why I'm currently doing what I'm doing though. When I struggle with myself I reach out to others and make sure that they're doing ok and try to offer them support. It takes my focus off me and makes me feel better at the same time.

passingby8 · 31-35, F

@Kodel 🤗 Why's it been rough?

Kodel · 26-30, M

@passingby8 I could really do with a hug right now if that's what that emoji is. The joys of being very touch orientated and not receiving any physical contact.

I've been dealing with a lot of personal stuff of recent. I confessed my feelings to a friend of mine and progressively over the last few weeks (after her not reciprocating my feelings) things have gotten worse between us. She told me twice after some conversations we had trying to suss everything out, that she wanted to go back to the way things were. Her actions totally contradict her words though. Her actions say, "I'm only speaking to you because I feel like I have to."

passingby8 · 31-35, F

@Kodel maybe touch is one of your love languages.Yeah it's a hug yw :) and that sucks about your friend I'm sorry :/

Kodel · 26-30, M

@passingby8 Touch is my primary love language. It's the way I desire to he shown love the most. Hugs are amazing and I cherish each one I get. What I often dream about is sitting on a lounge and a woman is sitting on my lap, resting her head on my shoulder. I'm holding her gently in my arms and she is either holding on to my arms or stroking my face and snuggling closer to me. That intimacy may even bring me to tears. I would be so content in that position.

These things happen. Hence why I'm trying to devote my attention to new friends.

passingby8 · 31-35, F

@Kodel besides words of affirmation I really enjoy touch,so I love hugs too.Well you seem like a nice catch :)

Kodel · 26-30, M

@passingby8 I love encouraging people through words. I love seeing the joy in their face as they hear how much they truly mean to me. It's beautiful.
I adore hugs. I never seek them out though as I feel weird seeking hugs from people. If people offer hugs I take them up without a second thought.
That means so much to me. Thank you so much for that. You are an absolutely lovely person.