I Am Alone And I Am Lonely
"forgive yourself first"
That's what my mom told me.
It's been two days since we broke up and I thought, it's easy. Because I am good at pointing out your flaws.
"You are becoming so unpredictable, I can no longer handle you."
The last words you said.
I shut down all my social media accounts temporarily. I have seen your post. You wanted to move on as 2020 is approaching.
What made me sad? I heard the song you used to make me listen. You know that moment when you're buying stuff at a mall and you heard our song then suddenly realize that, it feels like, just yesterday, you're here, beside me. Now, I am all alone.
I want to apologise but, what if I lose myself again? Will you leave me again?
It hurts so bad that I can't even cry. My eyes are wet and my head aches because I can't almost cry. I feel sick, and I was wondering what you are doing.
"Just like that" my mom once again told me. "He left you just like that." I know she's my mom and I know it is my fault. But, I am sorry for being not good enough.
That's what my mom told me.
It's been two days since we broke up and I thought, it's easy. Because I am good at pointing out your flaws.
"You are becoming so unpredictable, I can no longer handle you."
The last words you said.
I shut down all my social media accounts temporarily. I have seen your post. You wanted to move on as 2020 is approaching.
What made me sad? I heard the song you used to make me listen. You know that moment when you're buying stuff at a mall and you heard our song then suddenly realize that, it feels like, just yesterday, you're here, beside me. Now, I am all alone.
I want to apologise but, what if I lose myself again? Will you leave me again?
It hurts so bad that I can't even cry. My eyes are wet and my head aches because I can't almost cry. I feel sick, and I was wondering what you are doing.
"Just like that" my mom once again told me. "He left you just like that." I know she's my mom and I know it is my fault. But, I am sorry for being not good enough.
26-30, F
