I Am Lonely

I'm feeling really lonely right now :(
Everyone around me is always busy and when I finally do get to spend time with people, it doesn't always help me get over this feeling. I do see people regularly (e.g. at college) but it is not the kind of connection I crave.
I want someone who is like a best friend who I can be myself with. Someone who will give me a hug when I feel down and misses me when we have not seen each other for a while. I want to feel wanted. Obviously, I can't rely on people too much, but even just sometimes would be nice.

I also am usually very open about my feelings with people, but I've noticed that it either bores them or it doesn't really fix what is bothering me. So, on one hand, I want to talk less about my feelings in hopes it might make people enjoy my company more but on the other hand, this just adds to the loneliness. I kind of use websites like this as my 'ranting bin' sometimes, but I wish I was in a better mood so I can post more cheerful things.

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Ryannnnnn · 31-35, M

That's what I used to be like, then I became closed over time and now i kinda push people off when it's probably what I need.
Then you get a sense of isolation with people because a big part of you is under the surface and people never get let in because you feel you'll be let down or get the same old reaction.

Think we all miss having a best friend or partner. But sometimes the sense of loneliness is in ourselves. *hugs*

MissMoon · 26-30, F

@Ryannnnnn yeah, I think I'm on the verge of becoming closed off now because I feel like I get my hopes up and overestimate what I consider to be 'a new friend' and open up too soon.

I want to learn how to be ok alone, I've been doing research into mindfulness and hoping that will help me with sad days like these until I meet someone who i can be close to in real life

Ryannnnnn · 31-35, M

@MissMoon Just don't stop putting yourself out there. I've learnt to be happy on my own but I kinda like it a little too much now.
Older we get the more we find ourselves on our own, and it get's harder to get out there.