I Am Lonely

I have struggled with loneliness my entire life. I'm naturally an introvert which makes it more difficult to just "get out there" and make friends. To make matters far worse, I did not marry my best friend. I married for the wrong reasons. My wife and I are mere house mates, sharing a house, sleeping in separate bedrooms, leading very separate lives.

I look at coworkers and acquaintances around me with envy. The ones who lead very active lives outside of work. The ones who talk about hiking with this friend, meeting up for lunch with that friend, going to some meeting with other friends. I just get to come home to a house that's more like a mortuary than it is a home.