I Am Lonely

I’m truly convinced that I’ll be lonely forever. I battle insecurity and depression. I’m chronically insecure and can’t fathom the thought of myself in a relationship. I’m 17 and I’ve never been in a relationship, had my first kiss/ held hands etc. Guys don’t show interest either. I’m also different and unique artsy, creative and I have a lot to offer I’m just... stuck and feel like no one understands or related to that part of me. And this year I cut off a friend because we were having troubles and I don’t regret it. But she was my only close friend but now I’m my only friend. It’s gonna take some getting used to I guess. I get lonely and cry when I’m alone. And it’s awkward having mutual friends with my ex friend. I don’t know what to do now I’m a loner. No one to text. To relate to. Stay in touch with everyday or send anything to. I’m so so isolated and no one understands.
~ forever lonely girl

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Randomlygenerated · 26-30, F

Some of us come a little later to the dating scene! I had my first boyfriend & first kiss at 20. In my experience, it means you end up making fewer mistakes - because a little bit of maturity and security in yourself can go a long way in making relationship choices. I'm so glad I didn't have to deal with any relationship issues when still going through the confusing teen years!

As for making friends, look at what's on offer in your local area. You say you're artsy and creative - maybe join a painting or upcycling group? Push your boundaries and challenge yourself too; try something different and you may end up really enjoying it! If you can't find much in your community in the way of clubs and groups, try the library. They sometimes run short courses and groups, but even just becoming a regular makes you more likely to meet and get to know people.