I Am Lonely

I’m truly convinced that I’ll be lonely forever. I battle insecurity and depression. I’m chronically insecure and can’t fathom the thought of myself in a relationship. I’m 17 and I’ve never been in a relationship, had my first kiss/ held hands etc. Guys don’t show interest either. I’m also different and unique artsy, creative and I have a lot to offer I’m just... stuck and feel like no one understands or related to that part of me. And this year I cut off a friend because we were having troubles and I don’t regret it. But she was my only close friend but now I’m my only friend. It’s gonna take some getting used to I guess. I get lonely and cry when I’m alone. And it’s awkward having mutual friends with my ex friend. I don’t know what to do now I’m a loner. No one to text. To relate to. Stay in touch with everyday or send anything to. I’m so so isolated and no one understands.
~ forever lonely girl