I Am Sad and Lonely

Im divorced a year as of this month. I am living alone and lonely as hell. i have not been with another woman since I met my wife. I dont like me right now though I know that those who know me love me. i have depression and bipolar. not like the "flipping out" bipolar. just sad bipolar. i shouldnt be alone right now. i was not supposed to be. i am a normally funny, outgoing loving person, which is how the people who know me, describe me. im hoping someone will see this in me and get to know the real me. for now, i'll just talk to people and pray that somehow my life will change. im also a caring person and not only would I give someone the shirt off my back, but I'll put them on my back and carry them home. can anyone relate ?

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SW-User

i am sorry to hear about your divorce - it would be unfair to say that i understand how you feel because i do not but i have been through some rough times in life as well..

the one thing i learnt from them is that people often say that - right after the darkest moment in night there is the morning and you gotta look forward to that morning - and the trouble is sometimes these dark times last pretty long - a day, a month, a year or more - sometimes you have no control over how long they could be and sometimes maybe you do - what i do promise you is that there is sunshine at the end of it though - inevitably someday the morning will come and you'll wake up knowing that you are happy at last

the second thing is that often in our difficult times we lose the greatest gift that we have and that is hope - in times when even love falls short to save us its hope that keeps us going and its important to keep it burning - but it is also equally important to push to make that hope into reality - we stay too long staring at the closed door of our lives hoping that they would open - and we fail to realize the open door right behind us which will make us equally happy if not more - sometimes it just takes the effort to just move away and look at the new opportunities in order to become better

and third final thing is something i would do everyday i woke up and that was to go and smile in front of the mirror and carry that smile as long as i could during that day - somedays i felt sick of myself for pretending to be happy and somedays i was glad i didn't show my tears - i realized people would only sympathize until a certain point and after that it would be the same dreary world - but smiling helped improve my day even if it was infinitesimally small - and slowly and steadily by pretending to smile, i got over my darkness and became happy again - the best part was i didn't have to pretend anymore

i hope you will be happy soon - cause you can be - its in you - you just need to find it :)