I Am Lonely

It wasn't until a couple of weeks ago that I came to the full realization that I have no one to talk to and how alone I truly am. I have friends, family, etc.. But when I hit my lowest point and needed someone to talk to, anyone, no one was there for me. I'm the type of person who is always there for people. I listen to their problems, their worries, their coping with failure and I have never asked for anything in return. I felt that if you cared for people that is what you do. Guess that just doesn't apply to me. That is when it hit me out of nowhere. I guess it finally gave me clarity that ultimately I matter to no one. With the exception of a few people who depend on me for something no one would ever miss me if I was gone. Hell I even got to work 2 hours late the other day and no one, i mean no one noticed I wasn't there. How sad and pathetic is that? Anyway, i'm not on here to try to get someone to feel sorry for me, or tell me everything is going to be ok (because I gave up believing that a long time ago). It's more to just tell people....if you have someone in your life who is always there for you when you're down, hurt or alone, don't take them for granted. Underneath some of those smiles likes a broken heart and pain that is difficult to manage alone. You don't have to build them up or fix their problems. Just let them know someone is there for them. Compassion can sometimes pull someone out of the depths of their despair if even for a moment.