I've been going thru an old hard-drive that I found a few days ago, and it's basically only stuff from before 2018.
There's so much stuff there that I honestly wish I could unsee right now.
Whenever I transfer stuff to hard-drives I don't go thru it usually.. So a lot of it, is stuff that I should've deleted a long time ago, but instead I transferred it to get space on my mac and was supposed to "look thru it later" - which "later" is apparently now.. in 2026.. 🙄
I found one that I've named "Seriously useless shit" and it's bunch of stuff from the time I was with my last ex - so, facts!😂
But also from my first ex, a bunch of random screenshots, videos, documents.. A few scripts cause ever so often I decide to become an author and try to write something that I'll never finish.. Poems that I've made, videos from singing.. and a looooot of travel related content - including vlogs; cause I had a little period where I was hyper focused on creating content for youtube 😂
It's kinda crazy, cause at some of the pics and videos I look so happy, and I can understand how I fooled so many people when I was with my ex, we literally looked like the perfect couple, but I obviously know the "behind the scenes" which is giving me a weird feeling around it 🥹
Some of the videos are sooo cringe too, like dubsmash - did anyone use that? Or videos of me singing in Albanian!? as if I'm freaking fluent in Albanian😂 I can't freaking deal with myself sometimes.. 😂
But the hardest to look thru is this one
I didn't expect there to be videos from the funeral - including my speech - and from the hospital when he passed away 😭
Clearly there's a lot that I've literally just put in there and never actually looked at or had the stomach to go thru.. And the one picture I was hoping to find isn't there (or I haven't found it so far) which is sad, I can so vividly see this picture in my mind, but I can't find it anywhere.. And hearing his voice again.. 😭❤🩹
Clearly this is a roller-coaster of emotions for me, but it's kinda nice to see some things too, like pics from vacations, and family, a lot of good memories.
It's a time portal. Every picture is a door you can step through and relive. Be careful though, if you change anything everything in the future might change, of course you would never know it did. Welp, maybe that makes it OK. Go have some fun.
Hold the picture up to face a mirror, turn off the light (it has to be pitch black) and say Barn7snickleMary 3 times loudly. You may need to repeat it a few times if nothing happens.
