Monday really woke up and chose violence..

I had so many errands to run, and cut that in half cause on my way to my doctor I saw my ex crossing the street, and literally had a panic attack🙃
- The ex that I left the country to get away from (yes, it's been years - I thought I was over it - clearly not).

I stopped thinking and walked away, then panicked and became a freaking detective trying to safely get to my doctor and then tf away from there without him seeing me🤡

I'm still shaky even tho I'm home now, but I literally feel sick..

It's soooo freaking stupid too, I have no real reason to feel scared, it's not like anything would happen if I ran into him and said hi.. But my nervous system don't seem to feel the same way🥺🙃