My worst nightmare actually..

I feel like my town is too small and there's too many evil people here (evil from my past experiences..)

We've been thinking about buying a new apartment, and I looked at one that I instantly fell in love with, but I know that my ex lived in that area when we broke up, so I googled him 😂 and sure enough it was the same building.. No thanks.

I can't imagine moving somewhere new, because I'm literally terrified of who my neighbors might be..

What If I move next to some of the people that's caused me serious trauma like the second guy that raped me (which also lived in that area before), or the guy that tried to sell me while he was in prison.. I would never leave my apartment or even open the door..

This is part of how my trauma haunts me, that I've never actually thought about before..
I feel safe in our neighborhood now, I know our neighbors, some of my colleagues lives in this area, no one from my past lives here.. It feels safer🥹