I think I'm having an identity crisis..

I had to lay down earlier with an ice pack, to regulate my nervous system.
I'm in overdrive, I'm not really doing good, but I keep telling people I'm fine, and some days I feel ok. My grandma called me earlier because we haven't spoken for a while, and I can't remember the last time I called anyone, or spoke to family. Time means nothing, I didn't even realize we're in June, until my husband pointed out that it's our anniversary next week. I feel lost, but at the same time not. I woke up today from a nightmare, and the last "voice" I heard before I woke up was "maybe you shouldn't take those meds today", which freaked me out, so I didn't take my adhd meds. I feel like that dream was a sign that I needed rest today. Idk.

I'm being pulled in so many directions, I feel drained and paralyzed.