He asked me what triggers my dissociations the most..

And I instantly thought of it, but couldn't tell him..
Not sure if it's because he's a man, older, it was the first time we met or because he's strict, and that scares me 🥹 But like, idk.. I think he's a good therapist (he gave a good first impression), just not sure I'll be able to open up the same way I did to my past therapists.

He started the session by reading my journal so I could point out any misinformation..
Listening to him read what was basically a timeline of my worst trauma felt like someone was slowly suffocating me - and I still feel like I can't breathe properly..

He did, however, give me some good homework. He went "with me you'll have homework", like okei, you know I have adhd too right 🥹 Literally made it home, called my best friend, and already forgot what my homework was 😂 I asked if he would text me a reminder about my appointment, and he said, "nope, that's on you to remember, and if you forget, you'll be charged, so make a system.." 🙄 I forget things on a daily basis..

Someone remind me that I have a new appointment on May 5th, please and thank you.. (I have to wait that long cause I'm having surgery)..