He asked me what triggers my dissociations the most..

And I instantly thought of it, but couldn't tell him..
Not sure if it's because he's a man, older, it was the first time we met or because he's strict, and that scares me 🥹 But like, idk.. I think he's a good therapist (he gave a good first impression), just not sure I'll be able to open up the same way I did to my past therapists.

He started the session by reading my journal so I could point out any misinformation..
Listening to him read what was basically a timeline of my worst trauma felt like someone was slowly suffocating me - and I still feel like I can't breathe properly..

He did, however, give me some good homework. He went "with me you'll have homework", like okei, you know I have adhd too right 🥹 Literally made it home, called my best friend, and already forgot what my homework was 😂 I asked if he would text me a reminder about my appointment, and he said, "nope, that's on you to remember, and if you forget, you'll be charged, so make a system.." 🙄 I forget things on a daily basis..

Someone remind me that I have a new appointment on May 5th, please and thank you.. (I have to wait that long cause I'm having surgery)..

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If he can't write things down for you to to follow up, or even give you a card with your next appointment time on it, id say thats a proverbial red flag.
Hes a therapist. He's a medical practitioner. The above mentioned are standard procedure in any clinical situation. And if your gut is telling you you hes not easy to open up to, id say 'take heed'. However he is right in that you have to make a system. If you know you forget things, you need to hack your own behaviour and put up a visual calendar, (a large one), or use your phone reminders or something .