I'm a bad friend lately - I'm sorry

He's used to us talking every day for hours on hours, video calls, and constant updates.
Last time I posted a story (or was online) on ig was the 12th. We still speak every day but not like before, I just don't have the capacity. My phone log is full of missed calls from different people. I haven't answered my best friends.
I don't remember what I've even been doing, time has just flown by and I haven't been able to fully appreciate any of it. I had to cancel my market, because I had to work that day, and even tho I felt bad, a part of me felt release too, because I always feel drained for a few days after a marked. I've signed up for the next one tho, and will make sure I'll go to that one.

Both my doctor and my life coach told me I need to slow down, and instead I took on several other projects and responsibilities. Almost like my brain goes "oh you think I can't handle this? Watch what I can do" - until I freaking collapse. I'm so tired of myself.

I don't know how to get out of this fog I'm stuck in.
I just asked my life coach if I could move our meeting till tomorrow, but maybe I shouldn't have. I'm just not even sure what to say to her, and I feel like just dissociating into oblivion right now.

But I can't do that, I have things I need to get done, I have meetings, and things I need to fix, I have a puppy now that needs me, I have friends that need me, my husband needs me, my family, my patients... Maybe I feel overwhelmed by the thought of people constantly needing something from me. I've always done so good on my own, and even tho I've had friends reach out for help in the past, I've always been the person that will suddenly disappear for some time, and then pop back up at some point, and people have just known that that's what I'm like, so we continued like normal.

But I can't do that anymore, I need to always be "on".