I find it strange that this.... internet forum is the place I feel the safest of all the places in the world.

Right now I feel extremely vulnerable. My mental health is out to ruin everything for me. I'm very scared. I don't want to lose everything I have worked so hard to build for myself. I don't want to be my parents. Please. Please.....please.... How is this happening. How am I exactly like them? Ruining everything for myself? Leaving major life projects halfway through? I can't.... I wouldn't be able to live with it....