We slept together the other night
I stayed the night to help with Naya because she asked me to. We took Naya to a doctor's appointment & to the library because she loves books. We could tell she was really happy to be with both of us at the same time. We talked about a lot of things & we succeeded in doing it without any arguing. I was even able to say my own POV without her getting mad at me again or shutting me down. I explained how every time she does that, it takes away any chance I have to also be understood. Because that puts a wall up & nothing I say after that will be heard or make a difference. She actually understood my feelings for once & we were both able to listen & say how we felt. That's all I've been trying to do for so long now. I apologized for everything I wish I did better at & she did the same.
I've been making little flirtatious jokes with her lately to test if she might still be into me. She kept playing shy but she wasn't discouraging it. She made another comment about me kissing her so this time I acted on it. One thing led to another & we ended up doing things 4 times in a row & then a few more times the next day. It was some of the most passionate we've had in a long time. We accidentally left hickies all over each other like we're teenagers 😂 we even tried new stuff & it was exciting 😌 then we went to bed together & she laid on my chest with our arms around each other. We haven't cuddled in a long time so even that was really nice.
We haven't decided to get back together & I haven't moved back in. She asked why I'm keeping things open ended & I told her I just don't want to expect anything. I don't expect us to get back together & I also don't expect that we can't get back together. I don't know what to expect & I can't make the decision alone so not expecting anything, keeps me prepared to accept either way this goes. We both know we love & miss each other at least. This stuff is hard but at least we're getting along.
I've been making little flirtatious jokes with her lately to test if she might still be into me. She kept playing shy but she wasn't discouraging it. She made another comment about me kissing her so this time I acted on it. One thing led to another & we ended up doing things 4 times in a row & then a few more times the next day. It was some of the most passionate we've had in a long time. We accidentally left hickies all over each other like we're teenagers 😂 we even tried new stuff & it was exciting 😌 then we went to bed together & she laid on my chest with our arms around each other. We haven't cuddled in a long time so even that was really nice.
We haven't decided to get back together & I haven't moved back in. She asked why I'm keeping things open ended & I told her I just don't want to expect anything. I don't expect us to get back together & I also don't expect that we can't get back together. I don't know what to expect & I can't make the decision alone so not expecting anything, keeps me prepared to accept either way this goes. We both know we love & miss each other at least. This stuff is hard but at least we're getting along.
