It feels weird getting accustomed to being home again

There's a lot of things I got used to. Like I can eat real food again & drink cold drinks now 😌 I can breathe clean air. No more jail spreads & flavorless slop (I always seasoned my slop with the seasoning packs from ramen noodles). I can shower in the peace of my own home instead of wide open bathrooms in front of dudes shitting right across from you.
Even just listening to music feels like a luxury right now. I had the damn Burger King theme song stuck in my head for weeks because it was all I'd ever hear on the TV plus it was like torture watching at burgers on TV while all you can eat is meals that are barely edible. I would save a tortilla for each day so I could make a burrito with ramen, pork rinds, crushed Takis, & cheese. It's crazy what people figure out how to make in there. We would basically eat the same thing every day though.

On my birthday everyone even got together & made me a big ass cake out of bread, cookies, peanut butter, milk, & mixed fruit jelly. They even sang me Happy Birthday which surprised me for sure. Made me feel appreciated in some way.

I only almost got into a fight once & it also surprised me how pretty much everyone stepped up to back me up. A week ago I put a few dudes in check because they kept using the N word & I already told them multiple times that shit wasn't cool. One of them was the head of the Paisas so he thought he had some authority. He tried stepping up to me so I stepped up too. Suddenly everybody else stepped up with me. The head of the Chicanos was right by my side then both the heads of the blacks stepped in to back me up too. Even the head of the whites heard about it from further away so he rushed in to back me up too. It wasn't even his business & normally he wouldn't have cared but he told me, "Man I was in the shower but when I heard it was you, I threw my clothes on & rushed out here before even drying myself off. I was ready to jump for you"
Even the 2nd head of the Paisas was on my side. He said he had my back before he even knew what was going on because he knows I'm not the type to start shit over nothing. Pretty much everyone came to shake my hand afterward & tell me I did the right thing. People even gave me food as a show of respect over it (food is like currency in there).

I didn't realize until then how much everybody had my back. Every race stepped in to back me up which I've never seen happen for anybody else. There's a saying in there, "not my race, not my place" so every race sticks together & helps their own people first (I know, it sucks that jails are still organized what "race" you belong to. Jails really don't progress on the same level as the outside world). I never cared about race though, I got along with everyone equally & every day I gave away anything I could to help people out. I never asked anyone for anything in return. If I had it, I gave it. Even that's not very common in there. People mostly trade everything or "owe" people but I didn't want anybody owing me or me owing anybody else so I kept it that way.
I even saw one dude get jumped by his own race for giving something to a black guy before offering it to his own race first. It happened on the bunk right beneath me actually. I was asleep, I just woke up to commotion like "well damn tf y'all doin' waking me up? 🤨"

There were definitely some predators in there too. Like the "booty bandit" types who seem like they'd fuck you ASAP if they got the chance. One famous quote I heard someone say in there was "it ain't gay it's just jail" 🤔 ...idk about that one but I definitely made fun of it a lot 😅 If you're gay that's cool but don't be a fucking weirdo or a predator. That's all I'm sayin'. There was one dude I thought I was gonna end up beating the shit out of eventually. He would always eyeball me & make weird ass comments. He was definitely the gay predator type. He was bald headed, covered in tattoos including a set of horns wrapped around his skull. Everyone acted afraid of him but I think he respected me at least to some degree because as much as I talked shit to him, he wouldn't step up to me. A few times he even asked me "why do you look at me like that?" & When I asked what he meant he said "you have this evil look in your eyes like you wanna kill me... You've killed before haven't you?" I told him, "why you walk around eyeballing me like you're Deebo with a slump? Got your neck all fucked up like this" then I imitated his walk 😂 we always just laughed everything off but he knew I disliked him. I was the one who outed him for being a predator & crushed his "tough" status before I left.

I kept a notepad & I would write about my stay, once or twice a week. I brought that home with me. I stayed up reading late every night. I worked out every day, whatever muscles I worked out that day I always made sure to do a thousand reps of all different types. I feel pretty damn fit right now. I can definitely feel the difference & I guess it's noticable when I take my shirt off because when I got home even my lady started touching my body like "ohhh my 👀" which is exactly what I was aiming for 😌 I even got a 6 pack coming in.. I haven't had that since high school.

I even started making mini dreamcatchers to pass the time so I started selling them too. I didn't even know I could make them 🤷 I just took a shot. I made the first one for my daughter then I decided to keep practicing & making more. I gave away a bunch of my last day but I brought some home for my family. I made them out of bottle cap seals, & I would rip the wire out of headphones for the middle designs & thread from towels to wrap the outside.

The one on the right is Naya's, that was the first one I made.

This one was both red & gold, I made it for my lady ❤

Then here's the rest. The one on the top left got damaged because Naya played with it & chewed on it lol.. it was prettier before. That one is hers too though so it's okay

I guess jail is mainly just finding ways to burn the time. Nothing else to really do. Definitely brings out a lot of creativity & at least I came out in better shape 💪 it's pretty nice to feel good about yourself. I gotta keep working out & I wanna eat healthier too from now on just because I like having this energy. I don't wanna get used to just being okay I'm tryna stay on the roll.

It's just so nice to be home.. definitely takes some getting used to again. I just feel bad I missed so much at home