I feel like people ignore me because they want me dead I'm just gonna take a bunch of pills tonight

Please don't do it. I'm sure many people wants you alive. I understand that you might feel like they want you dead, but I'm sure they don't. Many people like you and van consider you as their inspiration. Please don't do it, you don't wanna die, you just don't want to feel the way you feel. Taking pills is a awful thing to do. Ears ringing, heart beat so fast and so loud, constant sweating, stomach ache, dizziness and many more. I've been thru it and I really don't recommend it. It's hard right now but you're gonna get thru it. I'm here for you and will do my best to make you feel good about yourself and happy, just please throw the pills away. Vent to me or a trusted person instead of doing it