I don't like dreaming about the past 😔

I just had a dream that I was checked into a huge hotel and was wandering around looking for my room, when I ran into my ex fiance in the hallway. He was nice and we chatted a little, and I got to see his dog again. Then he said he had to go, so we kind of awkwardly shook hands one last time and he walked away.

For some reason when I woke up I felt so...sad. Not sad because I still want to be with my ex (I don't), but sad because I hate saying goodbye to people and animals I once had a great deal of feeling for. 😞

Moving to Arizona happened so fast, I almost feel like the shock still hasn't worn off yet. It happened so fast I barely got any closure regarding my last relationship. I had to leave in a hurry because I had a very small time window in which to pack my things, load the truck, and head out. It was so rushed. I had to say my final goodbye to my ex that morning before he left for work- I remember we hugged and both teared up a little because we knew that we most likely would never see each other in person again. And the HARDEST part of leaving was when I had loaded all of my things into the truck and I had to come back into the apartment to leave my set of keys on the counter and say a final goodbye to his dog (who I loved very much). I think I cried for the dog harder than anything. 😭 I wanted to take her with me but she had belonged to him before I met him, so it wasn't my right to take her.

I'm happier in Arizona than I was in Texas with my ex. But I'm honestly still adjusting to this new chapter of my life, and the road hasn't been as smooth as I'd hoped. Maybe after this first year things will smooth out. 🙏🏻