Do you apologize for crying?

I am not a crier. I learned early on in life crying makes it worse and that there was always severe consequences for doing so. I always cried in private (normally in the shower, or once I became an adult and started driving the car was another place I would cry)

I am a huge empath so I’ll fucking bust out crying over music, tv shows, books, movies and shit like that.

But crying because im hurt or in oain. It wasn’t something I ever felt comfortable doing.

It wasn’t safe to cry when I was a child and when I was married my ex was very uncomfortable another the emotional shit

Well I am working through something pretty bad right now and I’ve been crying a lot. Still in private because again it’s the way I’ve always done it.

Well papi witness a huge crying episode and all I could do was keep apologizing over and over as I’ve always done anytime someone has seen me cry.

This wonderful man 💕 🥰 he didn’t make me feel ashamed or weak. He didn’t make me feel like I was making him uncomfortable because I couldn’t pull myself together.

He told me I didn’t need to apologize. That crying didn’t change how he saw me and he knows how much im struggling right now and he is actually relieved that I am crying and not holding it all in and not bottling it up or turning the pain to myself

He called me silly for apologizing. Saying that there is never a need to apologize for crying. I thought it was something everyone did and now im just wondering is this another thing that makes me so screwed up that I apologize for crying. I wonder if anyone else is like this or I don’t even know

I don’t even know what the point of writing this is.