When was the last time you cried

For me it was this morning. You know I wish I had a choice in weather or not I wanted to exist. I'd have chosen not to be born.

I want to go to sleep and never wake up but apparently I'm still alive. Why can't people that matter, people that have kids that depend on them be the ones that are spared.

I'm just tired. Desperate for eternal rest. Does anybody understand 😭😭😭.