Anyone else cry into their pillow so nobody else can hear??

I am right now. Can’t remember the last time I had to do this but I’m sure that it’s not the first and it probably won’t be the last. I feel like I’ve been falling for a while now but it’s just getting worse not better. I’m not even sure what’s upsetting me anymore it’s just not clear. Nor can I see a way to stop and pull myself out of my bottomless pit 😔.