I can't handle it anymore.

They treat people like shit and then just expect everyone to turn right around and forget. They honestly don't understand. They don't try to hurt anyone but they just don't understand that they do. And then they think I'm being cold and mean when it upsets me or makes me feel ashamed and I don't want to show my face. They think I'm just bring mean. It's so draining. It's so, so, so draining. I can't do anything right.


I can either stuff my own needs down like a slave boy and be nice and kind to them or I can accept that I'm ashamed and do what's needed for me and offend them and make them think I don't care about them.

Either way is horrible.

I'm too drained to fix any of it. I try to and I just mess up and then I get angry and self destruct.

I'm trapped. Nobody around me understands it. I'm just a selfish recluse to them. It's horrible. They don't understand. I have no way out and no help and no one to understand.