I dont even get excited anymore
I have been shunted so many times when something excited happens that i dont even get excited anymore. Does anyone else have this?
26-30, F
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nonsensiclesnail · F
yes, but i'm not sure why i'm this way.
I dont get scared when something sudden happens, like almost getting hit by a car for instance. I also don't get excited about anything.
But, something in me does...such as when I was surprised with a European trip for my anniversary. I had no real emotion but tears ran down my cheeks. But I didn't feel the emotions.
I think im just broken.
I dont get scared when something sudden happens, like almost getting hit by a car for instance. I also don't get excited about anything.
But, something in me does...such as when I was surprised with a European trip for my anniversary. I had no real emotion but tears ran down my cheeks. But I didn't feel the emotions.
I think im just broken.
Nowuseemenowudont · 26-30, F
@nonsensiclesnail I relate to this alot. Like its almost like I know that I am suppose to be feeling an emotion so my body wants to react. But the only emotions I feel anymore are pain or sadness.
nonsensiclesnail · F
@Nowuseemenowudont Exactly!!! I think mine is due to taking too large of a dose of an anti depressant that I can't remember, because I cant remember much of anything from that time of my life.
I went though a period pf depression where I felt nothing. hut and anger, yes, but even those were ....muted. after some time I decided I needed to do something so I could function, and I got over medicated.
I went though a period pf depression where I felt nothing. hut and anger, yes, but even those were ....muted. after some time I decided I needed to do something so I could function, and I got over medicated.
Nowuseemenowudont · 26-30, F
@nonsensiclesnail so how did you over come? are you still over medicated? I would like to hear more if your willing
nonsensiclesnail · F
@Nowuseemenowudont 3 months? in..I think..again, I don't know, I realized I couldn't write my name anymore. So I weened myself off and that was that. that was over 10 years ago.
I've learned to accept it.
I get little hints of emotion now, for a moment, or a few hours I'll feel something. Sometimes it just so nice to feel again, but other times I'm grateful that I cant feel the constant panic and fear I lived with for most of my life. I've come to terms with it.
I've learned to accept it.
I get little hints of emotion now, for a moment, or a few hours I'll feel something. Sometimes it just so nice to feel again, but other times I'm grateful that I cant feel the constant panic and fear I lived with for most of my life. I've come to terms with it.
nonsensiclesnail · F
@Nowuseemenowudont Wait... there is one more thing. The one way around it...
its not healthy
if I drink, I feel happy. It's a nice break....but, if im really depressed, it doesn't.
its not healthy
if I drink, I feel happy. It's a nice break....but, if im really depressed, it doesn't.
Nowuseemenowudont · 26-30, F
@nonsensiclesnail yes I get that, it makes all the bad memories fade and you forget for a sweet moment.
nonsensiclesnail · F
@Nowuseemenowudont it's not even that, actually. I think just a happy drunk? I dont need to be drunk, jsut tipsy. Im not a fan of being drunk. It's not the same, but it fells nice to feel for a little bit.
Nowuseemenowudont · 26-30, F
@nonsensiclesnail Does it ever make you feel sad?
nonsensiclesnail · F
@Nowuseemenowudont Drinking? Hmmm... I'm not sure. It makes me sleepy as hell, but sad... maybe on a rare occasion.
If I'm depressed to begin with, I can't tolerate stupid things. Im all about silly and stupid, but not jackassery stupid. I lose my patience. I try to keep it to myself still, because just because someone made me mad doesn't mean I need to share that fact with them. I know it will pass. But occasionally, I just cant keep it bottled up.
So, I know when I'm stuck in that dark pit of despair, I don't drink...often. My liquor cabinet misses me.
If I'm depressed to begin with, I can't tolerate stupid things. Im all about silly and stupid, but not jackassery stupid. I lose my patience. I try to keep it to myself still, because just because someone made me mad doesn't mean I need to share that fact with them. I know it will pass. But occasionally, I just cant keep it bottled up.
So, I know when I'm stuck in that dark pit of despair, I don't drink...often. My liquor cabinet misses me.