i dont think my life is worth livng

may 9th 2023. at 2:38pm after school when i was in detention. my boyfriend broke up with me, he said he would stay. but he left me all alone. i was in tears for the past 4 days and i dont know what to do anymore. he was my last hope, my last chance. i gave him everything, i made sure he was okay. i didnt get anything in return.
i see him matching with some girl now and i started crying all over again over a boy who didnt care ab me even though he acted like it but it was all an act. how can he move on that quick when i cant even move on.

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riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

Your in pain cause you gave him everything ' You had self esteem issues starting off before you met him and then gave him everything hoping he'd stay to make you more secure in yourself .
Now since he's gone your in pain back to your self esteem issues about yourself .
Welcome to the club . See you wouldn't realise it until your out of it until reality will hit you with a lot of pain .
I never realized it until a bad break up until i was out of it and Yes you would feel suicidal. I was for a year and a half .
That was 14 years ago and up to this day im single still . Much happier cause now all i have to deal with is my own madness instead of another persons madness .
Your lucky that happened you at an early age cause you grow from that pain .
I was 30 when it happened me and guess what a pysche ward for 6 weeks after the break up cause i ended up getting destroyed from it but now im 42 and looking back it now it was the best thing that ever happened me cause i don't depend on anyone now for my happiness , opinions about me , views about me .
I mean nothing do u know what the best thing about it was i got closet to God over all the pain i went through , and you said it yourself , not pointing it out to you cause i was the same I'M NOTHING WITH OUT GOD .
Be grateful at your age this happened you cause you'll grow like a flower now .
You'll get to a point were you won't even want a relationship and everyone can have relationships around you and it won't bother you .
Be grateful . You should say Thanks in your own mind

ajdesire · 16-17, F

@riseofthemachine that hurt to read.

riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

@ajdesire I didn’t mean to hurt u . It’s just an experience I had .
I was saying it to u cause you could save yourself a lot of pain .
I hope your ok

ajdesire · 16-17, F

@riseofthemachine it hurt me in a way where i cried. reading through that entire thing. its okay, i dont care if im okay or not, but thanks for telling me your experience i appreciate it

riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

@ajdesire you be fine . Your at an age now where life is only beginning .
Here’s a tip for you .
Don’t be afraid of life or else life will make you afraid of yourself