I Dont Know Who I Am Anymore

My dad was always the drinker. Anything that happened warranted a drink. But he's been locked up for a year now, and I've noticed that my drinking is growing. I've never been legitimately, not all the way here, drunk. And I've never made myself sick. But I just downed enough, fast enough, that I covered my bathroom in vomit. I cleaned it and immediately started realizing what a disappointment I am. I don't what I'm doing. I don't know why I'm doing. I don't even recognize the girl in the mirror. I don't know who I am anymore".

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Silverwings · 61-69, F

Today is the first day of the rest of your life, God gave it to you, what you do with it is your gift back to him, choose well, live in moderation, do not waste time in regrets, there is nothing good to be gained from doing so, if you are not happy figure out what is wrong and find a way to make it right, be your own best friend, choose to reach out to others, for support and learn to give as well as take, give God the praise that is due him, you will be rewarded, learn to be thankful every day in every way, be the best you possible.