I Dont Know Who I Am Anymore

My dad was always the drinker. Anything that happened warranted a drink. But he's been locked up for a year now, and I've noticed that my drinking is growing. I've never been legitimately, not all the way here, drunk. And I've never made myself sick. But I just downed enough, fast enough, that I covered my bathroom in vomit. I cleaned it and immediately started realizing what a disappointment I am. I don't what I'm doing. I don't know why I'm doing. I don't even recognize the girl in the mirror. I don't know who I am anymore".

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nowic2 · 61-69, M

Well the ball is entirely in your court now. Only you can decide what you want. Let the bathroom be a wake up call to you or keep going as you are? I have no doubt you have a lot to offer others & a lot going for you. What do you want your future to look like? You have to make some choices. There will be people to help you if you need it. Make the right choice for you!