I Dont Know Who I Am Anymore

My dad was always the drinker. Anything that happened warranted a drink. But he's been locked up for a year now, and I've noticed that my drinking is growing. I've never been legitimately, not all the way here, drunk. And I've never made myself sick. But I just downed enough, fast enough, that I covered my bathroom in vomit. I cleaned it and immediately started realizing what a disappointment I am. I don't what I'm doing. I don't know why I'm doing. I don't even recognize the girl in the mirror. I don't know who I am anymore".

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SW-User

I exactly feel like you. Also my drinking is going high and it is not good. I also don't know why I do it. :(

StillLearning · 26-30, F

It's funny. Most people who turn 21 become "mini-alcoholics" because they're finally of age. I'm finally able to provide for myself what my family has for a while. I can't stop. I don't even know if I want to anymore. @SW-User

SW-User

@StillLearning Yes I started at 22. And sometimes I hate myself. My alcohol habits have recently grown more. I hope you can recover early.