Have you ever been embarrassed meeting people from your childhood.

Have you ever been embarrassed of how you were as a child? And scared to meet people from your childhood again? I am scared they will think im as bad as i was back then, i was a good kind kid but a real chatter box and i would say a lot of stupid stuff because i hated silence. I also hate that i hate learning that makes it so there is nothing to talk about no hobbies no intellectual conversation and I do not like gossip or talking about other peoples lives.