Adios Amigo [I Would Rather Be Alone Than Be With the Wrong Person]
So, I just posted a rant before this post for context. That's pretty much how the entire relationship went. I'm not really sure when I wrote that rant (keep in mind I don't speak to him in the same way that passage is written. I enjoy getting my feelings out in a way that I know I can't when speaking to someone else). Anyways, I'm guessing that was written about 6 months ago. We are one month past our first anniversary now.
Today I've begun packing my things. Through various ways, I found out that he was cheating on me. He attempted to connect with several girls who lived in the area and I found some remnants of conversations and photos on his Snapchat. The crazy thing is that I was open to him and myself seeing other people. I told him that would be fine, just be open with me about it.
That's what I said in my last relationship too, yet the guy cheated on me. They are so remorseful after the fact and say that they have no idea why they did it and that it's so "not something they do"... yet they did it. They try to tell me that I'm the one and all of this other nonsense, when I'd much rather hear about why they did it or how they plan to go about changing, but they never breach those topics, and I don't help them to get there.
It's only been 3 hours since I confronted him and I still can't sleep. It's 4:30am now. Half of my things are packed, and the rest is in our bedroom, so I'll get that in the morning.
I suppose the relationship is better off ended if the majority of my sadness comes not from the idea of being without him, but from the regret of wasted time.
Today I've begun packing my things. Through various ways, I found out that he was cheating on me. He attempted to connect with several girls who lived in the area and I found some remnants of conversations and photos on his Snapchat. The crazy thing is that I was open to him and myself seeing other people. I told him that would be fine, just be open with me about it.
That's what I said in my last relationship too, yet the guy cheated on me. They are so remorseful after the fact and say that they have no idea why they did it and that it's so "not something they do"... yet they did it. They try to tell me that I'm the one and all of this other nonsense, when I'd much rather hear about why they did it or how they plan to go about changing, but they never breach those topics, and I don't help them to get there.
It's only been 3 hours since I confronted him and I still can't sleep. It's 4:30am now. Half of my things are packed, and the rest is in our bedroom, so I'll get that in the morning.
I suppose the relationship is better off ended if the majority of my sadness comes not from the idea of being without him, but from the regret of wasted time.
31-35, F
