I'd Rather Be Alone Than Unhappy
Alone does not equal "unhappy" in my eyes. I very much loved being single and I actually miss it. 🤷🏻♀️
I did my own thing. I worked, provided for myself with no problem, and had a small but sufficient circle of friends. I was kind of a homebody during the work week but on weekends I would go out with friends or go to a movie by myself (which I enjoyed).
I wasn't looking for anyone when I met my fiance. We started chatting as friends, and eventually we grew on each other and felt like the next logical step was to try a relationship. I mean there was a "honeymoon phase", like usual with a new partner. But now that that has worn off....well I miss being my own person who is only responsible for myself and my pets.
I think I [i]want[/i] to be single again. Being forced to shack up with my fiance and his family has shattered all delusions of grandeur. Honeymoon phase definitely over. 😒
But I'm stuck, financially and mentally. I have no way out unless I just take off on foot and live on the streets and hitchhike to get out of Texas. I don't want to break my fiance's heart, but at the same time, I don't want to be trapped in an unhappy situation forever either. And I'm not even 100% sure he would care if I left. Hell he might be as unhappy as I am.
Just being 100% real.
I did my own thing. I worked, provided for myself with no problem, and had a small but sufficient circle of friends. I was kind of a homebody during the work week but on weekends I would go out with friends or go to a movie by myself (which I enjoyed).
I wasn't looking for anyone when I met my fiance. We started chatting as friends, and eventually we grew on each other and felt like the next logical step was to try a relationship. I mean there was a "honeymoon phase", like usual with a new partner. But now that that has worn off....well I miss being my own person who is only responsible for myself and my pets.
I think I [i]want[/i] to be single again. Being forced to shack up with my fiance and his family has shattered all delusions of grandeur. Honeymoon phase definitely over. 😒
But I'm stuck, financially and mentally. I have no way out unless I just take off on foot and live on the streets and hitchhike to get out of Texas. I don't want to break my fiance's heart, but at the same time, I don't want to be trapped in an unhappy situation forever either. And I'm not even 100% sure he would care if I left. Hell he might be as unhappy as I am.
Just being 100% real.
41-45, F
