So.... something that always hurts me. Is when people mock me when I say "one of my friends told me..."

And they Snicker and say "what friends?"
It's like a constant in my life.

I'm surrounded by high achievers. Because of my profession I think? I work in healthcare. Most people are competitive, clever, smart, highly social, and among them I stick out like a sore thumb when I can't crack a witty remark in a situation, and am mostly quiet. Despite smiling and being decent, and now fairly interactive, I still get this remark.

I literally got it today as well. "What friends are you talking about? You have friends?".

I'm so tired of life. No matter where you are, the plague just follows you around. You can't ever run away from your shadow.

I want to cry.

Why do I look like I don't have friends? Why can't I look like other normal people? Why can't I just blend in for once?

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iamnikki · 31-35, F

I can relate.
One time, years ago while in the break room, it was almost time to clock out.
A girl tells me what she planned to do after work (I didn't ask). Then she asked me: "what are you gonna do when you get home...I mean after work?". It was said in a sarcastic tone.

At a different job a few years ago, I was chatting with a coworker. She always has stories about what her and her friends do.
I have acquaintances but even if I had a bunch of friends, I don't feel the need to start off with "me and my friend". I'll just say I went to the movies or I went to go eat or I went to the carnvival.
One time she said " do you have friends that you go with.
She was very condescending and I told her she was.

I'm sure you look perfectly normal.