Mom came home. But she's not talking to me.

But at least she's safe.

I was so scared for her. I had the police out looking for her, but she came home maybe 5 minutes after I got off the phone with them.

I don't know what's going to happen in the morning. After that blowout, I wouldn't be surprised if she leaves again.

I deserve it.

I deserve to be left alone. That's how I deserve for my life to end. Alone.