I'm not happy with my life

been using this site since I was 19. I left, came back, left again, and now after a couple of years I'm back here. It's nice to share my feelings anonymously here. I live in a family filled with toxicity, backbiting, betrayal, and fights. I’ve been depressed throughout my late teens up until now I don't know how to be happy anymore. I live in a third world country where things are not pretty easy to do. I wonder how it's for the people in same condition living in first world. Btw Hi to y'all !!