I am desperately trying to write my life story. it is so painful, that it is too difficult.
How do i break down the emotional walls to write this crap down so i can die already?
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Carissimi · F
Don’t do that to yourself. Do what moves you away from pain, not what causes you more. You are not ready to be writing, and revisiting, this pain. Maybe you will be at a later date, or maybe never at all. It’s okay one way or the other. The only way I can get through each day is to not think about certain things. If I did, I’d be literally unable to function. Don’t make the suffering worse than it already is. It’s too much. 🤗
@Carissimi i know you are trying to be kind, so thank you. but i have been through more than most and i think the world needs to know what actually happened. i have been ignoring it for always and now i think about it constantly . it is driving me insane. i need to get it all out in the open. it is very important to me. i am not well and if i died without telling my story, that would be tragic.
Carissimi · F
@antonioioio I don’t look ahead because my future looks mundane at best, and bleak at worst, so I stay in the present most of the time, with little excursions into the past for nostalgia mainly, but if something painful comes up, I leave it alone as best as my dear brain will allow (that thing has a mind of its own), and try and engage my mind in other things. It’s not always easy, but when you have nothing to look forward to in the future, it’s easy for the mind to look back on the past. We all do the best we can to keep going. Whatever it takes.