Coming out
To come out, as your true authentic expression in the world, is more challenging than I could imagine.
It feels like, the ideas within my head, of what is expected, are so stiff and creating a whole self that isn't ME.
I posted a picture in my social media. A picture where I'm feeling the shift in me. I know I am shifting, I experience it. And I get the comments of my previous support system of friends and elders. And I feel trapped again there. As if they're perpetuating the past.
It's so hard to let loose, especially of those. I can understand they come from a place of compassion.
But I don't want compassion anymore, I don't want to be supported anymore, I want to be loved and this means, to be heard, and this requires from me, to finally become able to speak.
I want to come out in my fullness, in all of my craziness and authenticity, I've been shrinking, people pleasing and silent for so long.
It feels like, the ideas within my head, of what is expected, are so stiff and creating a whole self that isn't ME.
I posted a picture in my social media. A picture where I'm feeling the shift in me. I know I am shifting, I experience it. And I get the comments of my previous support system of friends and elders. And I feel trapped again there. As if they're perpetuating the past.
It's so hard to let loose, especially of those. I can understand they come from a place of compassion.
But I don't want compassion anymore, I don't want to be supported anymore, I want to be loved and this means, to be heard, and this requires from me, to finally become able to speak.
I want to come out in my fullness, in all of my craziness and authenticity, I've been shrinking, people pleasing and silent for so long.
