When i was younger, I believed in love. I would get butterfly in my stomach whenever I saw L

I dont feel them anymore, the butterflies i mean, the excitment and nervous jitters. I've been betrayed (not cheated upon, thats different) one too many times. I dont think I can trust anyone anymore. People ask me why am i with him i could get someone younger. Honestly, its because love doesnt exist, security does. I am financially secure with him. That is more than I have been ever since my childhood. Initially i was with him because of the butterflies and the way he made me feel.