I'm not sure I really fit in with all of you tbh 😔

I just feel like an outsider trying to fit in somewhere I really don't.

I was on EP from 2012 till the end. Then SW from day 1 til September 2017. I came back 3 months ago & idk.. I kinda feel like I shouldn't have.

A lot of you have built bonds here & even though I remember the majority of you, nobody remembers me & I missed so much of SW's existence in general that I just feel like the 'new kid at school'.

Some of you talk to me & I appreciate that but some of you blatantly ignore me & only talk to the people you know... Which is funny to me because I know you all too. Just none of you know [i]me[/i] anymore 😕

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SW-User

I left and lost many of my old friends so this account doesn’t feel the same. All you can do is try to connect more and find new friends. People don’t stay around forever so we just have to make new connections. From what I see you are popular on here. You have gotten tons of likes on your post so that tells you a lot. Don’t be hard on yourself. You’re not the only one that feels that way about this place.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@SW-User very true. Nothing in life is permanent, not even ourselves. I try to live my life with that in mind the best I can.
But what's interesting is the more I think about it 🤔 basically, [i]everything[/i] I've been apart of in life, I never felt fully part of. Some part of me has always felt like I don't belong. I guess that applies to so much without us realizing. Maybe that's why a lot of us are here to begin with

SW-User

I swear I feel the same way. I don’t even feel I belong to my own family , ethnicity , country or even religion. It’s sad but I know many people that feel the same way. If someone pays attention to me offline I feel awkward like I don’t even deserve to be recognized. @ChiefWalksWith40oz

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@SW-User yeah exactly 🤷 the more I think about it, the more I think most of us in the world probably feel like that but we never admit it because that wouldn't be considered "fitting in". I get the awkward feeling often I've just gotten really good at acting like I don't 😂