I need to vent

I think I need to realize that I would never be rid of my ex
I guess , somehow I need to learn to not be so afraid of him but it’s kind of , like, trying to not be afraid and anxious when you have an scorpion on your back :(
To this date, the only thing he has not done is arranging for my murder .so I’m constantly in fear of what he might do next .

Even worse, are people around us , who judge me and decided what is proper for me to do without knowing the hell I’ve been living in for 26 years.

I try to be strong but It’s been an exhausting month of tolerating an extra dose of him and his people and it’s not over yet 🥺

I guess, what I’m trying to say is, pray for me 🥺

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SW-User

It upsets me greatly to see you or any woman going through this. My own sister went through it for seven years and no one including me understood what was really going on until her kids got old enough to one day tell us. Her husband was so controlling and clever at making it look like she had psychological issues and her injuries were from doing self harm, and that he was actually protecting her by living remotely to keep her away from triggers. But what was really going on was far more sinister and he had everyone convinced. It took all her family to help her get free. I really hope you can too. I hope you have someone who believes in you and understands what you're going through. At least on here you can talk to people who will understand. The people who sit in judgement of you and my sister and all those going through it anger me the most.

Niloo · 46-50, F

@SW-User
I’m so sorry to hear that.
I’m so glad she was rid of him.
I would get extremely weak periodically due to severe stress and and a cardiologist also diagnosed me with broken heart syndrome once after one of his affairs . However , barely anyone knew .
After I moved out. I realized he was telling people that I was mentally ill .

SW-User

@Niloo Thank you, and i'm glad you were able to move out but i really hope you're able to finally be free of him. Telling people you're mentally ill is such a common tactic, along with trying to isolate you from anyone that may see his true intentions. I suffered broken heart syndrome when my wife left years ago. I thought i was having a heart attack and my heart beat was irregular and blood pressure through the roof. It's hard to explain to anyone unless you've experienced it.