I need to vent

I think I need to realize that I would never be rid of my ex
I guess , somehow I need to learn to not be so afraid of him but it’s kind of , like, trying to not be afraid and anxious when you have an scorpion on your back
To this date, the only thing he has not done is arranging for my murder .so I’m constantly in fear of what he might do next .

Even worse, are people around us , who judge me and decided what is proper for me to do without knowing the hell I’ve been living in for 26 years.

I try to be strong but It’s been an exhausting month of tolerating an extra dose of him and his people and it’s not over yet

I guess, what I’m trying to say is, pray for me