I need to vent

I think I need to realize that I would never be rid of my ex
I guess , somehow I need to learn to not be so afraid of him but it’s kind of , like, trying to not be afraid and anxious when you have an scorpion on your back :(
To this date, the only thing he has not done is arranging for my murder .so I’m constantly in fear of what he might do next .

Even worse, are people around us , who judge me and decided what is proper for me to do without knowing the hell I’ve been living in for 26 years.

I try to be strong but It’s been an exhausting month of tolerating an extra dose of him and his people and it’s not over yet 🥺

I guess, what I’m trying to say is, pray for me 🥺