Can relate to a lot of this. Sometimes there doesn’t have to be a specific anything to fill that time for yourself. You can just be…breathe…soak in not subjecting yourself to the pulls from countless directions. Those are the moments that recharge me the most. Beautiful nothingness. But other times when I don’t want to be alone with a mind that can produce very unsavory results when it’s left unoccupied after the constant flow of stimuli it’s used to, I throw myself into a passion that I’ve had to push aside due to my needing to tend to responsibilities that couldn’t be ignored. Either way, breaths are replenished and maybe a spark of inspiration for creating a new side quest emerges in the process.

I don't like my job. But I can't go anywhere to Asia at the moment as the border closed. I want a long holiday in 3 months after COVID-19. I won't bother to work for that company.

You need a Holiday.

My boyfriend lives that kind of life. I find it boring.

{@lykos] no doubt you are dedicateted to your work load which is commendable but all work and no play makes jack a dull boy . you need some social break from work somewhere

Rest when your dead. This work keeps your mind occupied.