I Want to Be a Better Person

sometimes my friends approach or consult me like i'm some life coach or something... i like helping people, but they never know that my life is also a fixer-upper... as much as people are trying to deal with their own dramas and dilemmas, i am also trying to be a better person myself. but this is just something that i keep in the inside... i never speak of my weaknesses and problems outside, i always pretend that i am strong and that nothing's wrong... i dont know... i just find it hard to say things like, "I am sad," even if i really am feeling so down. i can't seem to utter, "I am feeling little," though i clearly hear this voice inside telling me that my self-esteem has already run out. i can't dare accept negativities. i always say the opposite out loud. sometimes i feel like i am a fraud or just denial. but i can't accept that either, i'll always prefer calling it just me being positive.