I Am Not A Failure, But Im Just Tired Of Living Life Like This

Well...I was sober a month and almost 3 days. Life is shitty. I've been trying my hardest, and it's so easy to help others be positive tonight though, i'm lonely, I Miss my love and I'm two 24oz Stella Cidre into my night. I'm such a lame so Ashamed. But at least I can type with a buzz on. #LikeaBoss