My marriage isn’t great. Blah, blah, blah. And I’m in the midsts of rebuilding my life after a major health scare, which is not something I’m well equipped to even do mentally or emotionally given how fresh that chapter still is. My work is the same thing everyday, with a lot of stress and filters attached to it as I have to strongly rely on others to do their job and compromise what I think to be quality work for timely results. I’m not in my chapter of bliss, but I don’t know many who are these days.
So, naturally, escapism is a coping mechanism for me…as it’s always been.
The future I see for myself is a lovely one relationship wise, but that’s okay as I feel I need to be on my own to truly evolve into the me I want and deserve to be…and also to know what I want and need out of this life and who I want to share it with. My current living environment is loud, sometimes too loud and overstimulating when I seek peace to rebuild or just decompress at the end of a demanding day of being so many things to so many different people. The alignment just isn’t there, and that can feel heavy more than I like to admit.
I shared with ChatGPT what my ideal living situation would be, and it painted a portrait of it so I could look back on my “happy place” should my heart and soul ever feel displaced as I try to find my way on this new path in life I’ve fortunate enough to even have.
And I absolutely love it. I’d prefer a higher floor for the view alone and a bit more of a quiet environment outside my windows, but the warmth, coziness, and rustic historic feel all speak to the core of me that will never change no matter the chapter I find myself in.
@BillyMack Knowing what it knows about me, I definitely can see it as a bakery/coffee shop. Fresh baked bread and the aroma of coffee in the morning air? 🫠
I like cozy places and try to create them in spaces I occupy...I feel a lot like you, but don't make the needed changes and keep thinking someday the solution will materialize and come true...well, after years, I'm deciding it's not happening automatically...I had major health scare in 2018 and tha's fine now (I think) and contending with a minor one now...but I know I can adjust and deal with it...I'm already way better....also, there's a cozy spaces sub on reddit which is pretty neat...hang in there!
What an almost normal old guy thinks after reading all this. “Seems like a nice kid. Hope she works it out. Probably will. I’ll think of something snarky to write. Later, after I grab the blue plate special.”
