Am I narcissistic or just confident?

I like the sound of my own voice, I could look in the mirror all day, if there were two of me I'd marry myself

But at the same time, I have empathy, I never say hurtful words to others , I feel bad for other people

But when people get close to me , I can do the opposite and be very mean only to the people close to me
I'm very critical, at the same time judgemental

Being self aware is important, I can be commitment phobic , a perfectionist, sometimes delusional to the point i think the world revolves around me
If I can't have it my way it's over