Is 32 years too old an age to get one's life together?
At 32 I look back at my life and realize I've never really lived life. I say that because I spent most my life living for and doing things for other people that I never really focused on what was really important, which was myself.
At this age I thought I would have my own place, a car and A decent amount of money in my account. Instead I am living with my parents and helping them out with rent. I work from because of Covid as a graphic designer. I really want to move out of NYC. I have been living here for over 20 years, I honestly hate it here, because it is not the same city I fell in love with. But with $500 in my checking and as little as $7,000 saved up not sure if I can. I want to move to Connecticut, Ohio or Minnesota and just rebuild my life. With my salary I have found places I can afford, but it means I would stop helping my parents. I am the youngest of 4 kids, but feel I am the oldest. Because I am the only helping my parents, and the ones my older siblings come to, to borrow money. Despite the fact they have been working way longer than me and make more than me.
I know younger guys than me who are always on vacation, driving foreign cars, flashing money, women etc... on social media. I know social media can and is deceiving, and most of them are not living the type of lives they claim to live. But with the gifts and talents I have, I feel if my parents really invested in me and if I focused on myself I could of been somewhere big.
Been living with anxiety and depression for many years because of this. To the point that I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I have tried moving but my parents don't want me to. But at 32 I need to live my own life. I don't see myself moving forward unless I move from NYC. I have so many options to choose from, but I will have to disappoint my parents. But at this point I may have no choice. I am tired of living my life safe and living for others. Tired of spending so much money, time and effort for others with little to nothing in return. These days having a heart is not good. Because people will take advantage of it. The people around me seem to successful and at a good place in life. It is time for me to live for myself.
At this age I thought I would have my own place, a car and A decent amount of money in my account. Instead I am living with my parents and helping them out with rent. I work from because of Covid as a graphic designer. I really want to move out of NYC. I have been living here for over 20 years, I honestly hate it here, because it is not the same city I fell in love with. But with $500 in my checking and as little as $7,000 saved up not sure if I can. I want to move to Connecticut, Ohio or Minnesota and just rebuild my life. With my salary I have found places I can afford, but it means I would stop helping my parents. I am the youngest of 4 kids, but feel I am the oldest. Because I am the only helping my parents, and the ones my older siblings come to, to borrow money. Despite the fact they have been working way longer than me and make more than me.
I know younger guys than me who are always on vacation, driving foreign cars, flashing money, women etc... on social media. I know social media can and is deceiving, and most of them are not living the type of lives they claim to live. But with the gifts and talents I have, I feel if my parents really invested in me and if I focused on myself I could of been somewhere big.
Been living with anxiety and depression for many years because of this. To the point that I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I have tried moving but my parents don't want me to. But at 32 I need to live my own life. I don't see myself moving forward unless I move from NYC. I have so many options to choose from, but I will have to disappoint my parents. But at this point I may have no choice. I am tired of living my life safe and living for others. Tired of spending so much money, time and effort for others with little to nothing in return. These days having a heart is not good. Because people will take advantage of it. The people around me seem to successful and at a good place in life. It is time for me to live for myself.
31-35, M
